Ok so I went home, and ate everything! I ate cake, cookies, fried shrimp, icecream, mexican (Oh how I love Mexican!) I finally weighed myself and I gained back 7 lbs! But I'm going to look on the bright side and go from there. I'm still 7 lbs. lighter than when I started. I didn't gain it all back, and now I'm on my motivation train again! I'm going to go with what I do best. Giving stuff up completely. It doesn't work for a lot of people, but it seems to be the only thing that ever works for me. I have to take out the choice for a while. For instance, when I gave up sweets I did it for 6 months! Somehow when I give up stuff completely I'm able to do it. That's what I'm doing for the next 3 months! For 90 days I'm going to be giving up sweets, fried food, and red meat. The reasoning behind the sweets is that although I can go long periods of time without so much as wanting any. When I do finally eat them I eat them in excess which is not good. Fried food...well that should be obvious. It's awful! I don't eat it often...but once again...shouldn't really be eating it at all. Meat...although I don't think meat in general is bad for me I'm going to cut out high fat meat and hopefully it will keep me away from Crown Burger, Apollo Burger, Wendy's, and any other damn hamburger place that is so damn tasty!! Ok, well, that's my plan for the time being. I will keep my blog updated on my progress!!

Ok so last night I had Mexican! But...it was planned before I started my blog yesterday! It was also very good!! I love Mexican food, and besides how bad could it really be for me? Fried chips...salsa...sour cream...guacamole...and let's not forget every bite smothered in cheese! It's your major food groups! (Even if it is a billion calories...) Today I was much better. 8 1/2 hours at Desert Star helps with that. After waking up fairly nauseous I didn't take a lunch, but luckily Subway is within walking distance. I ordered a foot long yes, but hear me out! I ate half for lunch, and then the other half a few minutes ago when I got home. I should stay full until later tonight. I will try to eat an apple instead of cereal! I think Special K is laced with Cocaine! Shhh....don't tell the government though. They might take it away from me, and that would not be good! I haven't weighed myself in a while. I'm still a little afraid of what the scale might tell me. I will do it the Thursday before I leave for Oklahoma (which is next week) Hopefully by then I will have gotten my act together. 50 lbs! Woohoo!

My Inspiration!!

Today I decided to start a Blog. This Blog was inspired by 2 things.

1. Laura Lewis-I was bored, so I decided to read some of her blog.

2. The burger and fries (McDonald's) I ate about an hour ago.

I'm constantly trying to diet. I lose weight then I gain it back. This pattern has gone on forever! I recently bought a fitness journal where I was tracking my calorie intake. Over the course of about a month, I lost about 13 lbs. Then it happened. I tried a Crown Burger. Oh my hell! It was so good. Within the last week I have had Bajio's, Apollo Burger, Pizza, and now (It disgusts me to even say it. ) McDonald's. I don't even like McDonald's! I couldn't find my shoes this morning, and I didn' have time to make a lunch. I figured I'd get a sandwich at the college, but the cafeteria is closed at the college, and the stupid fake cafeteria didn't have anything in it today! I feel horrible now! What was I thinking? I keep telling myself that if I eat this way I will undo everything I've done, but I just don't seem to be listening to myself! Which is strange....since I'm always right!! I am going to stop doing this. I am going to finally break the viscious cycle, and this Blog is going to record it! My goal is still 50 lbs, and I will make it! 365 days from now I will weight 128 lbs.! (Unless I do it sooner!)